Fingers linger on the button, don’t know what to do.
Do I share? Do I let the most secret parts of me
Be visible to you?
I close my eyes. No. I haven’t got the guts.
Just bones and skin and a thumping heart
Lungs stopped working because I can’t breathe any more.
I need air.
You’re the sweetest poison, the most delicious toxin.
Every time you’re near I choke on my love.
When you smile I start to drown
And when you talk to me, I suffocate behind a laugh.
Like a first cigarette, I splutter
Like my first vodka shot, I’ll spit you out.
A dangerous pleasure and an awful addiction
I want to quit you, but I burnt down rehab.